hmm...
Normally he's very helpful with diaper duty anyway: he brings the fresh dipes and wipes, hands me the number of wipes I will need to complete the transaction, lifts his bum up off the changing surface so that I can slip the fresh diaper underneath him and then holds the top of the diaper snug while I attach the side straps. Everytime we do this I wonder what the trigger is going to be that makes Caleb decide it's time to potty like a big boy ALL the time instead of sporadically. It has to be coming soon right? Clearly he understands the process, since he accurately assesses how many wipes it will take to clean him up, right? Groan.
Anyway, here's what I think happened at the midday diaper change. Caleb was busily playing with his suction cup ball and blocks (build them up, knock them down, repeat five hundred times so as to drive your big brother crazy) when he decided that I was too busy to be bothered to change his dirty diaper. He took off the offending diaper (which, thankfully, was dry and only had one medium sized nugget in it...TMI? Probably, but hey the story requires it...), attempted to wipe himself, folded the diaper up WITH the straps, just like mom does, and then threw it in the garbage. Then Caleb tried to put a fresh diaper on by himself. I do not know how long it took him to finally give up, but I DO know he was seriously pissed off by the time he came into my bedroom and threw the uncooperative, mangled, fresh diaper on the floor. He then proclaimed, "I HATE it!" and then proceeded to gripe gibberish at me. I can only assume he was telling me how well the diaper changing session had gone up to the point when the fresh diaper ruined it all. When he finally calmed down, he grabbed another diaper, climbed up on the changing table and assumed the position. Surprisingly, he did a very good job of cleaning up. We did a once over with one more wipe and put on a clean diaper. Then, just to be sure, I asked him where the dirty diaper was. He grabbed me by the pinky finger and led me down the stairs to kitchen trash can where I found a dirty diaper wrapped up (just like I do it). I inspected it a little, asked him how many wipes he used, he motioned two. I aked him if he washed his hands and then Logan chimed in, "NO! And you should maybe boil* them 'cause he picked it up and looked at it. Caleb is GROSS!" At that point, I vomitted in my mouth a little, wondered what in the hell goes through little boys' brains and then washed Caleb's hands.
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*Whenever we come across someplace that is seems really filthy, I often make the comment, "We'll have to boil our hands when we get out of here."
And now, back to the tidying and last minute errands.








Wednesday she sent me this picture she sketched of me and my Grandpa Fred. I must be three or four in the picture, circa 1978-79. I can almost say that I remember that moment, but in reality it's probably a memory of many different moments combined into one. My Grandpa Fred died nineteen years ago after a long battle with lung cancer. To this day, this very second, anytime I think about him or talk about him, I cannot help but well up and just bawl. It's almost involuntary. I miss him terribly. I wish with all my heart that my youngest brother and sister could have known him. I wish he could have been at my wedding or even just once met my husband. I wish my boys could have had the chance to curl up in his lap and smell his cologne and love him like I did.




